This originally appeared on the Vision Through Words blog on
Feb 10, 2016.
I was walking from
the bus to my office one cold morning. I was standing at the corner of an
intersection waiting for the light to change and cupping my one free hand over
my nose and mouth to stay warm. A man walked up and said, “Hi doggie, what’s
your name?” I said, “Please don’t talk to him because he is working.” The man
then starts talking to me and says he used to be on oxygen, but then God healed
him. “Oh that’s nice,” I said. My ears perk up and I realize that the light has
changed, and we are so close to getting to my warm office. I give Racer the
hand gesture for forward, and don’t have to say anything; he just starts
leading me across. The man stays put, but I hear him calling after us, “I
prayed, and prayed, and prayed.” His words just hung in the chilly air echoing
on and on. It’s weird but I felt like my dog was in agreement with me that this
guy was a quack. Maybe what he had to share with me was meaningful but his delivery
was lacking. I couldn’t help but wonder why he had decided to share that bit of
information with me. Was he indicating that his illness was similar to my
blindness and he wanted to offer praying as a solution? Would he have shared
this information with just anyone at the corner? I can’t help but feel that it
had something to do with my disability. Multiple times I’ve been approached by
other strangers who try to tell me that there are doctors who can fix my
blindness. They are certain that they have read somewhere about a procedure
that will help me. I assure them that I visit a specialist every year who would
inform me of any cutting edge remedies. I’ve come to terms with my blindness,
but apparently people I sometimes encounter have not. If I were to tell that
man my true feelings about praying to be healed, I would say that it would feel
too arrogant to ask God to heal me. I would rather God spend his energy on more
pressing issues, like granting food to the starving children around the world.
Blindness, I can deal with. Going without food, now that’s a problem.